Sorry for the long pause.
Sorry for the long pause. I hate to neglect my loyal fan base. Oh, I am dying up here tonight. I am so exhausted. I feel like I haven't slept in days. I am wondering if I am fighting something.
I had a great time on Saturday for the Solstice. I spent all of last week thinking about my hope for the season and learning about herbs for the ritual. I spent it getting to know a friend a bit closer and reaching out to one of my relatives who is a powerhouse of energy but is so closed to the rest of the world. Towards the end of the week everything was extremely hectic. Not getting paid until Friday helped facilitate.
Sat I ran around non stop for about 6 hours. Thank goodness for a crockpot or I would never have squeezed in the preparation of my contribution to a potluck.
I met really incredible people on Sat. It was an open group of people and everyone was extraordinary. My friend April is an ER nurse as were all of the people that she invited. There was an extremely wonderful person name Jen. She is going to be a surrogate mother for a gay couple that she knows. It will be her first child and she will remain Aunt Jen. She had an incredible energy about her. I would love to know her more and see how this develops.
I decided that I was going to release the self-degradation that I hold so dearly to and foster a "primary relationship" with myself. I am going to grow self love. I don't know if I can explain how potent it felt to write those wishes down and throw them into the fire. I love when I can feel my passion.
I was complimented on the dish I brought by every single person there. That was a great feeling.
I miss my East Coast family dearly. It is funny to think that I miss Nicole probably most when I talk to her often. Although I know that isn't that funny. I have an almost daily dose of what I love about her/you. I finally fixed my broken pentagram that you gave me. I have felt naked without it every single day. I see it laying about and know that it is lonely too. Even though I wore it for years non stop I feel very self conscious as I begin to wear it again.