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November 29, 2003

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This may be my last entry for a while. I am in the real transition on my move and will be away from work for a week. See you all when I have resettled.

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November 24, 2003

Unconscious Mutterings

  1. Concert:: Music
  2. Sydney:: Nemo
  3. Shower:: Baby
  4. Patterns:: Circles
  5. Market:: Saturday
  6. Chair:: Recliner
  7. London:: Jamie Oliver
  8. Reception:: Signal
  9. Republican:: Alex P Keaton
  10. Cough:: Hacking
From http://subliminal.lunanina.com/

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November 22, 2003

Long Time Coming

This is one of those posts that I have been meaning to post for about forever! As an overweight, friendly, semi-cute woman I have to say that I really hate when I smile at an individual and I get no response back. I try to smile at almost everyone I make eye contact with. I know that sometimes I fail. I really hate when you smile at a male and you get the "I don't want to return a smile to the fat, ugly girl or she might make more of it" look in return.

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Friday Five

1. List five things you'd like to accomplish by the end of the year. Pack, move to new apartment, unpack, adjust and enjoy the new apartment 2. List five people you've lost contact with that you'd like to hear from again. I can only really think of two - Connor and Patrick Madden. I would love to see where their lives have taken them. 3. List five things you'd like to learn how to do. Knit, sew, web design, rollerblade, visualize. 4. List five things you'd do if you won the lottery (no limit). Buy my parents a house, buy a new car, take a month long retreat with the girl, go to school, take my son to South America 5. List five things you do that help you relax. Read, smoke, sleep, watch movies, play games (computer or board)

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November 16, 2003

Prolific

This has been the most posting I have done in a long time. Yesterday my two very dear friends Elle and Dana helped me scope out apartments. The task is overwhelming enough but as luck would have it my body is reacting negatively to all the stress I have been under lately and I find myself with a horrible cold. (I plan to go back to bed soon after this) I found a few very good possibilities and was able to rule out several places just by the neighborhoods and such alone. We had great fun when Dana accidentally locked her keys in her car. Thankfully the management at one complex was very nice and let us take shelter from the rain and use a phonebook. I have one appointment to look at a place on Monday. I am hoping the inside is really something to love as the location is the 2nd best of the places we looked. The outside is cute and definitely an older style. I am hoping this may be one of those situations where the older inside is maybe larger or at least charismatic. The apartment with the ideal location has a few very big negatives against it. There is almost no parking. The apartment is upstairs and around a corner. It has an older balcony so it definitely has room for the little preschooler in my life to get stuck in. The rooms are very small. But the storage in the place if phenomenal and it has a fireplace. I feel very conflicted about the place. I have until Monday to make a decision. I am craving pancakes horribly, and I have everything needed to make them but I feel I shouldn't risk wearing myself out as I have already been up for a couple hours and showered. I had to rinse offf that sick, slept too long feeling. Plus, I figured the warmth and steam of the shower would help my tight chest.

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Always Thinking

This Week's Unconscious Mutterings
  1. Plan B:: Alternate
  2. Seattle:: David and Mike
  3. The lady wore:: her hair in a bun?
  4. Upsetting:: mass news coverage of our "war" with Iraq
  5. Tampon:: part of my life
  6. Celebrity:: Notoriety
  7. Baja:: California
  8. 64:: Will you still need me when I'm....
  9. RGB:: RED GREEN BLUE?
  10. Milkshake:: Malt

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Always Thinking

This Week's Unconscious Mutterings
  1. Plan B:: Alternate
  2. Seattle:: David and Mike
  3. The lady wore:: her hair in a bun?
  4. Upsetting:: mass news coverage of our "war" with Iraq
  5. Tampon:: part of my life
  6. Celebrity:: Notoriety
  7. Baja:: California
  8. 64:: Will you still need me when I'm....
  9. RGB:: RED GREEN BLUE?
  10. Milkshake:: Malt

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Better Late Than Never

1. Using one adjective, describe your current living space. Disarray 2. Using two adjectives, describe your current employer. Corporate, technological 3. Using three adjectives, describe your favorite hobby/pasttime. theatrical, stimulating, expensive 4. Using four adjectives, describe your typical day. routine, bland, rushed, long 5. Using five adjectives, describe your ideal life. active, spiritual, harmonious.... I really cannot come up with another two. from The Friday Five

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November 12, 2003

Last Friday's Five

1. What food do you like that most people hate? -Brocolli, spam 2. What food do you hate that most people love? -Cherry Pie, most soups 3. What famous person, whom many people may find attractive, is most unappealing to you? -Denzel Washington, Sean Connery, Brittney Spears 4. What famous person, whom many people may find unappealing, do you find attractive? -I know there are probably a ton but I am drawing a blank. Steve Buscemi, Jeremy Irons, David Thewlis 5. What popular trend baffles you? -Trends in general baffle me... SUV's, low slung pants, patriotism

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Fog

I have felt like I am in a fog the last few days at work. I guess it is because my mind is so overloaded that I feel tired all the time. I don't remember my dreams but I know I am having them by the truck load. My parents have been in town this week and staying at my house since Saturday evening so I have been very occupied with no time to blog :( I am highly disappointed because I really like the questions for last Friday's Five. I hope my son will not be too disappointed to find that my parents have left when we get home tonight. It is not usual that I get to blog this early in the day but I am making a really valiant effort to stop smoking and that means staying at my desk and away from the chance that any of my friends will ask if I want to go outside. This of course also means that I am rarely moving from my desk during the work day. I know that is no good but for this first week I think it is for the best. I had a smoke free day on Thursday and on Saturday. I was overindulgent in tobacco on Sunday as it was a rotten day and I figured if I was going to have one cigarette why not 4. Monday I had one and Tuesday I had 2. I am trying for two non-smoking days in a row. Wish me luck! I hate that I often eat in place of smoking. Why is it I just keep acquiring bad habits? And where is more Banana blogging?

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November 10, 2003

Association

This week's Unconscious Mutterings
  1. Leapfrog:: Lizzards
  2. Co-workers:: Friends
  3. Mustang:: Car
  4. Wafer:: Communion
  5. Nicotine:: Addiction
  6. Fast food:: Mc Donald's
  7. Suffocate:: Stifle
  8. Myth:: Wive's Tales
  9. Lane:: Penny
  10. Unexpected:: Surprise

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November 08, 2003

Another Foul

On the part of the newly single dad... Can't make an appointment to save his life. I spent a nice afternoon sending stuff off to Goodwill. I had time to visit with Elle and my parents. Got sad news that I have to pay some rent for December because I wasn't thinking and gave my notice on the 5th of November. Ugh! I love you Nicole... I am going to try and call you when I get up tomorrow. I haven't seen Hotel New Hampshire in a long time and I don't get the entry.

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November 05, 2003

Toxic Hell

Tonight I had a life changing experience at Taco Bell. I literally feel that my life will never be the same again. My son almost choked himself into unconsciouness while people stood around and stared. At first it was the little cough and the look in the eye that something had gone down wrong. Then the gagging... Well, I really cannot relive the details. I can only say that I will now strictly enforce the size and quantity of everything that goes in his mouth. It was like I was going to pass out or go into hysterics. The talking was loud and yet fuzzy and so far away and at one point I could hear my internal alarm going off. On the verge of screaming "can someone fucking help me..." Elijah was shades of colors I never want to see again. There was a moment where he yelped and started crying and I heard a bystander say "there we go crying is good" and then the gasping started again. I had him upside down and everything. Oh my baby! Finally, as the worst was appearing to be over someone came to help me clean up the mess, an employee I am fairly certain. Before I could get out of there I was offered replacement food for my child twice. As if? I broke down in the car once outside. Elijah apparently fine and now wanting to eat again. Only once outside did I realize that I never tried to sweep the airway. I am angry that I was ill equipped. I keep telling myself it was because I wasn't aware it was serious and I was in the mind frame that I just knew he was going to spit his food out and wanted to minimize the mess and appearance to others wishing to have a meal. I hope getting this out will save me from certain nightmares tonight.

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November 04, 2003

A quiet day

I am working on a project at work so I am isolated and have shared very few words with anyone. It is making me a little brain dead. And I haven't shared any words with Nicole today. That always feels so strange. Last night I watched an interesting piece on Mary Magdalene and her possible marriage to Jesus. I had no idea that was even something for discussion. I guess I am showing how sheltered I am from any religious study. I didn't know that my childhood image of Mary has a prostitute was actually inaccurate. I was very fascinated and fought falling asleep to finish watching it. After I forced myself to get a second wind at 11pm I watched Rosemary's Baby. I had tried once before and found it too slow for my mood. It was amazing how sick they made Mia look during her pregnancy. Although I have to admit seeing her reminded me of how I often felt. I was disappointed with the ending. I am now reading Sophia Loren's autobiography. It is a good read so far. I have decided that if I am going to take little breaks from my moving responsibilities I should read so that I can get rid of some of the books that I keep for no reason other than wanting to get to them. Some are half finished. I have a collection of books by Harlan Ellison, one of my favorite authors. I got them from Chrispy and I cannot remember which ones I have already read but I cannot bear to part with them. Tonight I am having dinner with Elle and Ryan and Elijah. We are going to make pancakes as Bisquick is about the only thing I have in my house. I cleaned out my refrigerator and it is horribly bare. It looks like I just moved in or something. I find some comfort in knowing my freezer and pantry have stuff but seeing my fridge in this manner makes me feel like a bad mother. Ok. Back to work. I love you all.

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November 03, 2003

Actress

I really like this actress, Lisa Edelstein She was on an episode of The Practice, which I never watch but happened to catch last night. I find her enchanting for some reason. Partially because every time I see her I think of an old show, Relativity. And while Anne and I were hooked on the show for its short run it really reminds me of the time spend with Anne on Saturday nights together. In an empty house I got to know her in a way that I will forever cherish.

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Spur of the moment

At the spur of a moment I decided to call my friend Chris in Beaverton. Spur of the moment if you can call finally doing something you have been thinking about since April. I say April because that was when I obtained Agatha, my dependable car, my car safe for making a drive to Beaverton and back. I had tried calling Solomon and he was unavailable and I needed to get out of the house. I called Chris while I had the opportunity and he was home and free of plans. I picked a great day because if I had called on Sunday he would have been occupied with picking up his wife, Genevieve. She had been out of town for two weeks. While I had hoped to see them both it was a chance I seldom get to spend time with Chris alone. I left immediately to visit and we had a nice time. We got reacquainted and drank green tea. As we often do when I visit we went to Uwajimaya, an Asian market. Once there we visited Kinokuniya, a bookstore. Chris indulged one of my obsessions as an early Yule gift. I have two new tarepanda items to add to my collection, a calendar and a little suction cup with tarepanda on a swing. Tarepanda truely makes me giddy happy! I hope to make it up there again soon to see them both and take Elijah with me. I learned that Chris is working for Frit O Lay. He packages pretzels and while the work is just work he does have good benefits and great pay. He informed me that he can get cookies at a great discount but my favorites, the Frosted Lemon are one of the most popular. Chris, you are a wonderful great friend and I adore you immensely.

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Lost Post

I lost an entry last night and I was too frustrated to try and do it again. I will have to make time this fine day at lunch... I do not want to be at work today. My thoughts and sincerest sympathy is extended to the families and loved ones of the military personnel injured and killed this weekend in Iraq on their way home for a rest. And my deepest gratitude that once again I can post that my brother is still safe.

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November 02, 2003

Elle!

Happy Birthday Beautiful Gabrielle! I hope you had a great weekend away. It tried to snow here this afternoon. Very bizarre!

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Unconscious Mutterings

This week's Unconscious Mutterings
  1. Taboo:: Dirty
  2. Poison:: Hair Band
  3. 1983:: Melissa
  4. Tim:: Tiny
  5. Groovy:: Love
  6. Italy:: sigh, mmmmm....
  7. Think:: consider
  8. Penthouse:: Playboy
  9. Shelter:: SOS
  10. Twinkie:: Cowboy

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November 01, 2003

Go Wiener Dog, Go!

I was going to post today and then decided against but then I had to post something. I drove to Beaverton today to see a dear friend, Chrispy. It was nice to have the distraction from my ordeal at home. On the way home I thought deeply about the Girl upon seeing the wiener dog running for it on the lighted sign. I was cleaning out my desk drawer and found a ring Scott gave me back once upon a time when we were truely in love. It has been a hard day.

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