What a difference a day makes
This morning my entry last night seems a life time away.
Why am I not sleeping? I just keep up night after night watching TV, reading after that, masturbating after that, maybe some breathing excerises. As soon as I wake I realize how tired I am, how hard I was sleeping and how late it is.
Tonight I equated the all nighters to the itches, pains and other distractions that seem to pop up when I try to meditate, am I on the right path?
All day today the inner demons were at me. I intended to have a salad, I didn't. I thought I had part of a cucumber in the fridge at work, I didn't. I came home and had some celery. One step foward, two steps back. I won my battle today by stopping at the store after work and purchasing more apples, oranges, bananas and pears. Oh, and I went on a short walk today :P
My sister Melissa was over today, she and her children lived with me for a time a while ago. I have missed them. It is funny, I spent so much of my life at home just wanting to get away. Now as my siblings have had children, and our children have become friends I cannot imagine how life will be as life's events separate them by time and distance. I guess E isn''t so worse for wear having my parents out of state, the initial transition is a bit rough. My brother, sister-in-law and niece will be moving to the coast (a few hours away) soon. This spreading of the family tree should be a positive reason to travel more and have adventures but it never seems to be the case.