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February 22, 2005

Approaching 30

Maybe she is correct, as the months creep by I will feel more impending doom (not that those were your exact words)
Maybe it will happen sooner than later.
It seems I am having an instance of life passing me by while I was too busy standing still.
My youngest sister is getting married on Friday, and her third child will be on the way in October?
My next youngest sister is getting married in March, and her first child on the way in August
My youngest brother is leaving on Friday morning for the goddamn war
I have to say this is one part of being a grown up that is overwhelming
My child is turning 4 this year
This fall will mark the 8th year of my on again/off again relationship
Is this 16 yrs Nicole, this December?

Tonight I got an unexpected call, all my family was in town. My father decided that life is too short and decided since Melissa is getting married and James is shipping out on Friday that he was taking the week off. My brother, David is off this week and he and my brother in law will be spending the week wtih us.

Well I thought I had more to say but my throat is itching horribly and I cannot concentrate

I have been too afraid of what life would be like if I separated from my family and now I am realizing that I am the one that cannot deal without all my family nearby, despite all the drama. I guess that is what I really wanted to say tonight.


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February 10, 2005

The first thing that comes to mind... violets

violets
Kids in the Hall
Cocoa Puffs
Coke
Shambhala
NY style
free
oh so smart
purple, then yellow
peace signs (if only I knew more about the internet languages :)
spaghetti O's
Ott
M&M's
Xander
bain de terre
hair parts
Aussie
waterbearer
Ozzy
Violent Femmes
Gone with the Wind
Equestrian (I wrote Equarian)
lotus
shoes
floors
cut offs
pumpkin ice cream sandwiches
bananas on the floor
cinnabon
guacamole

you are my truest friend!

you are so much than the sum of these parts, obviously...

peace flower
Farenheit
Nordstroms
Nissan
Celica
Cougar

was it a subaru?

Vivan
grandmas
christmas breakfast
tie dye
Decker
Barney
Tweaker
Bunny
Gonzo
Kidney
amethyst
brown bomber jacket
Happy Thursday cards
science
"the quad"

you were the first to give my life meaning

o.b.'s
Bakersfield hell
GROOVY

Brian
David, how he ended up so far down on the list I can only guess (washing him, such a bad idea)
our paper christmas tree
Jeff
Mikey
Silverton
all those I don't care to name
spir-u-tein
The Big Chill
...all the favorites swapped for new

late nights, early mornings

cab rides
Earl
drunken skinheads
Sybil's
A Wrinkle in Time
Snoopy
Tim Roth
Gary Oldman

"The List"

pancakes, there's evolution for you
The Fab Four
too many hrs of MTV

Rudy
Gabrielle
Solomon

TEXTURE! I finally get it

christmas rituals, movies
adopting my family
day beds

How we stand the distance.

Molalla
Western
CCC

Becca
Allen
Tabby
Chrispy

Burlington loop
#2 Value Meals
Laurie Cabot
1994
1995
1998
1989, Dec

Women- I cannot pull many to mind for you

beach glass
Comic Sans
BWI
Dupont Circle
Carmig de Forest

engagements
weddings
Halloween
bats
quilts
Rosencrantz & Guildenstern

General Tso's tofu
sourdough
maple bars
cinnamon
vanilla

The Beanery
the elusive wall
Bud
upstairs over the bar
Carrow's

to all the memories yet to blossom

Lisa Loeb

I call it quits as I wish to limit those that might cause you any embarassment

Happy Birthday Nicole! (Look Who's Talking)
I love you and I need you and I have enjoyed becoming women together


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