life of uncertainty

I have felt very talkative lately and yet not sure what I want to say. I worked a full day yesterday and yet I feel like I had a relaxing weekend. I made the rounds today checking in with all my sisters. More babies by the end of the week. The weather has taken a strong shift. Fall seems to have leapt into the forefront. Even though it was sunny and warm today the night is chilled. I look forward to a weekend afternoon on the couch wtih hot chocolate and movies with the next rain fall. And yet sadly at the same time I dread the ongoing dark. A mother I know from E's daycare joined the WW group I attend. I didn't know whether I should say hello or not. She looked so sad. We'll see if she brings it up. I did yoga today after my meeting.

After rereading my entry I realized I used the word "yet" several timesb :) Good night!

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Even though I am not a pet person in the least the story of flood survivors being reunited with their family pets was almost more than I could bear.

Not having to drop my child off at daycare makes it much easier for me to be at work promptly. After 3 years you would think I would have adjusted my schedule. You would be wrong.

Stories like this make me weep with the knowledge that I want to be this kind of person

Sadly, I meant to post this earlier in the week and I have forgotten some other points that struck me. I am working today, a habit I had broken for many months.

My plans for the weekend include going to the bank, grocery shopping and hopefully visiting family.

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I have been doing Weight Watchers for over four months now. I have yet to reach the 10% weight loss goal. I think I am lingering around 24 lbs. I had a couple weeks of real frustration with my eating and the lack of physical activity. This week I am back on track. I have been eating better in general. Money troubles are helping me keep the fast food to a minimum. I can certainly say with being sick that I have been looking for any excuse I can think of to eat out however.

We attended a really positive meeting on Sunday. It is our normal meeting day but due to the holiday, and a wedding there was a different group leader. She was very high energy. We discussed changing meetings but it doesn't really seem feasible. I think in part it is for the best because I think it would be obvious that I cannot stop staring at her stomach. I swear it was one of the flattest I have ever seen. Maybe it would be good for motivation?

Here is hoping for a key chain this weekend!

Posted by Hennifer at 10:55 PM | Permalink

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Topsy-turvey. Highs, lows. Hot, cold. The ride is making me queasy, literally.

I spent so much of last week addicted to the TV. Screaming obscenities at the government for their lack of inaction. This week I am avoiding the news at almost any cost. I can feel the tightening of my stomach as I flip through channels and hear a snippet, knowing the pictures will draw me in if I give them a moment.

PMS has been aiding and abeiting all my moods. This has been one of those months were I really wonder if drugs are what I need.

Now I am sick. I have been queasy and feverish for 3 days now. My throat is coated in icky white spots. I paid $15 to visit the doctor, just to be safe. I have a perfect track record of viral infections, masquerading as strep.

Tonight was a good night. I slept on the couch while my son watched some public broadcasting. We ate Triscuits, cheese and cold cuts while sitting on the couch. I had one of those moments while eating where I wondered if my laid back mothering was a pro or a con.

Scott bought E some new clothes. I really wish I could have captured the glee in his voice as he tried on each pair of pants. He was bounding as he tried to reach his dad on the phone. I was filled with one of those moments of sadness. Knowing that Scott's dedication to working outrageous hours, with a distasteful schedule makes him miss so many of these moments is heartbreaking for me. They are moments of pure bliss.

We were surprised at bedtime when Scott got off work early. The same glee was present in E's numerous thank-yous. My happiness quickly turned to bitter disappointment when I realized Scott's visit was to be shortlived. I should just go to bed.

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