Slowly Working
Something someone said today has been tickling my brain most of the day...
It dawned on me that his "I don't know what I'm doing. When I do I'll talk to you about it" probably means exactly the opposite of what I think it means. I want to hope it means he'll come to me and tell me why this is all happening, how he mistook it for something it wasn't, that he wants my forgiveness and that I mean the world to him. I don't want to be punched again from no where. I have to let my mind contemplate that it might mean coming to me with all the gory details of how and why he knows he's making the right choice. How he adores this and that about her.
Can I be three for three? It is a possibility. Twice before now the other woman turned out to be the future wife. There is no comfort knowing that those marriages eventually didn't last.