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This is a really sad attempt at a food journal for today. The hang up is that I can't do this at the end of the night so much will be missing that I'll probably forget.
Breakfast - sausage egg mcmuffin, half a hash brown
Snack - 1/2 serving of baby carrots with honey mustard dressing, 12 black olives
Snack #2 - small handful of M&Ms
Lunch - lg onion bagel with lite and spicy tofu pate, 8 black olives
Snack # 3 - small handful of M&Ms, 1/2 serving of baby carrots with honey mustard dressing
I had 6 glasses of water today and avoided eating a doughnut.
Having baked ravioli for dinner. Maybe with broccoli. I also will probably have some chocolate pudding even though I see chocolate is the last thing I need.
I swear earlier today, or maybe even on my 3 am wakeup stint, I had something profound to say or just maybe something I wanted to verbalize but it is long gone.
-night
I won't lie to you, some days are easier than others. I was dying for a soda yesterday. I couldn't believe how intense it was really until it dawned on me that my body was craving everything yesterday. I had minimal water and almost no food until five in the evening. I ended up buying a sparkling fruit juice while grocery shopping. One can argue if this was out of bounds but I only meant soda. I won't ever find myself binging on sparkling fruit juice. It is too expensive for one. According to the bottle it counts as one serving of fruit because it has 70% juice.
I was also overwhelmed by the desire to have a cigarette yesterday. I noticed while I was pregnant that most of the time the smell of smoke repulsed me but on rare instances it was like the waft of a fresh meal (you know like in the cartoons). And it makes no difference if it is fresh or stale. Thankfully I was having a really low key day and once I was out of the area where the scent lingered I was free and clear.
As week one of my 2nd 21-day period comes to a close I am already trying to choose my next habit to make or break. I think I am going to put the focus on my teeth. I am horrible at flossing and just barely less horrible with brushing. Sadly I think I'll have to break those down also and work on brushing first and then flossing. It is sad how I can dutifully send my son off to clean his teeth before bed but I rarely join him. Often in part because once the children are asleep I might get a quiet moment to have a drink or snack that I couldn't enjoy while they are awake. Snacks at night are an issue too but I think that one is down the line for me.
Was I ever glad that I had green tea at home last night. I had to finish the rest of my Kettle Chips and of course no soda!
This morning I did one of my seldom, but favorite, morning routines. I get a HUGE burrito from a local place and munch on it from morning until late morning. I then fill the rest of my day with lighter snacks or don't eat much until dinner. I am sure these gigantic, often filled with meat, burritos aren't exactly spectacular for my body but I always feel more in control when I'm full until later in the day. It seems the earlier in the day I really get HUNGRY the more I just want to keep eating all day.
My evening dilemna is that I have an after school function tonight. I can maybe make it home in time to visit with the kids and pop out some grilled cheese before making my appointment but then I will just feel rushed from 5pm until the kiddos are down for bed.
I'm attempting to break bad and add old habits for the remainder of this year, and as long as it takes to get where I want to be as a person.
It has been 3 weeks since I stopped smoking. Today starts the addition of the ban on soda. I have done this before absent mindedly and have cut down considerably but I find times where suddenly I am craving it and drinking it without much thought. This time I want it to be different. Hopefully I'll be posting more in general. I need to start writing. I know it helps.
Although I started this journey on my own; today I found sychronistic inspiration from Artsy Mama who is drawing on the journey of Rhonna Farrer
Care to come along?